applied for a job again. as if i could actually make a company excited about me, that would be about as likely as me making a decent man actually get a boner over me. I am so hopeless. I know it. I can tell what people are thinking. They either over estimate or under-estimate but they never see me for me and give me a fair go. It would be easier for me to win a lottery of some kind , then to find a job or man and that I know is certain!