I don’t even know where to start. The girl I’ve been involved with for the past some time told me today that she was with another guy. Told me she’d tell me all the details, I only had but to ask. I couldn’t bring myself to do so, I was in too much shock. She told me she didn’t care for guys, yet the second one smiled in her face… *sigh. I don’t want to bad mouth her. It just really hurts and she doesn’t care. I’m the stupid one in all of this bc this isn’t the first time she’s hurt me like this, this is just the worst of all the many times, and stayed bc I had hope and bc I cared way too much…

Part of me is happy this all happened because she’s hurt me so many times. It gave me a reason to really leave, but I still hurt and I’m left wondering, will I ever find someone who makes me happy? I bet not…