My one and only life here on earth is full of sadness and misery. I am talentless, ugly, short, poor, in physical pain a lot, useless, I have social anxiety, I’m kinda fat….I have bad vision. Everything’s wrong with me. I’m 20 and I still have never kissed, hugged, or even held hands with a girl. I already know that I am destined to die a lonely death with no one by my side. Usually when someone is as fucked up as me, they have something to turn to…for example playing an instrument, writing, or whatever. I suck at both. I tried hard to learn to play different instruments but failed at each one. I talk weird and I am a solitary person. People never talk to me. I go days without contact because people don’t care. Here I am…posting my thoughts and emotions on the Internet. I am truly pathetic. I always wondered, when I was a child, what I’d be when I was 20. The answer, I’ve come to find, is that I have become no one. I’ve accomplished nothing. I’m barely graduating this year at age 20. I don’t know how to drive, either. I beg to God to help me….I have no motive to live besides my family. I have a find strength in them each day so that I may continue living. If they disappeared, I’d beg God to take me. But, they are here. They love me. If I kill myself, I’d be hurting them, not myself. No….I’m here for them. Even if I’m ugly as fuck and ignorant…I’m alive and will try my best until I die.