I am so tired all the time and its an effort to just wipe my butt hole after a dump off my mind. I am sick of going to the stupid ballet its so depressing and boring. that will end after this show unless things improve. I am bored over it and do I even enjoy the cruises. sort of but not being a party person I can’t get happy about a thing. all I do lately is buy extra food since the old bitch sister moved out. my mother wan’t more money all the time from me. I bought the ballet tickets and cruise. Things are gonna change. I am sick of doing the same boring crap and there is no love in my life no employment for my wasted ego. there is no fun or excitment or passion with romance to look forward to, no hope of a better life for house of my own or for those loser poor begging parents of mine to afford to fix their house. I would have to pay for any fixing here and I am sick of it. They have money invested and they get some returns and they are so selfish. they spend a lot on themselves, waste in food, eating out, clothing. how about saving cunts!