Im fucking pissed off at myself why the fuck do i lack confidence or care so much as to what people think im so weak i want to be strong and i want to scream at the world people are shitty and they will take advantage of you and there are nice people but sorting through the shit is draining im not social because what do i fucking say i dont have instagram or snapchat because i dont give a fuck about what she did or where they went im boring af and ill admit it the first semester of college i was lonely and this semester wont be any different im just at home all day since im unemployed im tired off being this way but i have to be patient and look for work and smile at people and try and make small talk