Why the hell is it that im constantly being damaged by other guys?! I meet a “nice guy” and we hit it off but of course I always have to make the first move! Do you know how fucking shitty that makes me feel to have never had the first move made to me?! It makes me feel unwanted. But, that’s not the point of my rant. My point is that everytime I start talking to a guy they always find a way to pull back from me. They just start to distance themselves after less than a week. The guy ive recently been talking to is older than me and nobody seems to approve of it so we decided to hold off and just wait until the right time came along. But immediately after we said we would wait, he told me that he didn’t want me to simply cease talking to him as we would talk the entire day. Of course I replied and promised him that I would never do that and that I cared about him too much to simply back out now. I meant that whole-heartedly and I am honestly starting to fall in love with him. But…hes not been talking to me nearly as often as he used to. Sometimes, like today, he wont even try to come in contact with me. So WHY THE HELL WOULD HE MAKE ME PROMISE TO NEVER LEAVE WHEN HE’S SLOWLY BACKING OUT?!??!?!?!?! I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to seem needy by any means and continue trying to talk to him when hes not putting any effort into this friendlationship. Im so done trying to make shit work out when im clearly not wanted in anybodys fucking life. Fuck “nice guys”!