i fucking hate school. im failing all of my classes. im going to fail all of my midterms. i hate my teachers. i hate 90% of the students. the building is shit. this place fucking sucks. i dont even know what i want to do with my life. my parents basically brainwashed me into thinking i want to be a doctor. i cant do that. i cant do medical school. theres no way. i dont think i can even do college. high school is hard enough. i just want to party and have fun while i can. i dont know what i want to be. i just know im not going to be able to do the work. i love music and photography and writing poetry. i like acting and singing in the shower. i cant be a doctor or a lawyer or anything that requires work. i have no motivation. im just lost.