I lost the love of my life today.

I’m a fuck up, I always have been. I never see what I truly have until I no longer have it. Her, being one of those things. The only person in the world who loved me for me, saw past all of my mistakes regardless of what I did that pushed her away, she still loved me, she still held me with her words and cuddled me to sleep, her hands soothed my heart when I was having anxiety attacks, her smile could make any bad day better.

And now I no longer have her. I fucked it. I fucked it so badly. I wanted to marry this girl. And now I’ve lost her. I’m losing my fucking mind, all I want is her. Just her.

I’m so sorry, Schatzi.
Please forgive me.