My life isn’t worth living and the few friends I have are the only thing keeping me from ending it .I try my best to boost my confidence and be the best I can be however it seems that no matter what I do I always feel like I’m dealt the shitty hand and its all my fault for not doing anything about it. I wake up every day knowing I’m not going to like it and I think that when I die I will look back thinking I haven’t done anything. I just think that it’s all fucking pointless and no matter what I seem to do the days repeat themselves and the only thing that changes is my age. I have no reason to feel as bad for myself as I do and my whole life I have been Persuing happiness however I know I’ll never truly be happy. I don’t even know why I’m posting this I’m a fucking joke. my dpression is turning more into anger and I’m just bottling up all my emotions and I feel that one day I will snap and I will seriously hurt either myself or someone else.