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I’m So Ugly and Alone

So many things are wrong with me, it’s not even fair. First off, I’m fat. I’m an american size 18. I feel so gross and I look awful in all the cute clothes that even come in my size (I’m lucky if cute clothes come in my size). I’m nineteen and I haven’t been on a date since I was fifteen, haven’t been with a guy in the same amount of time. It makes me feel worthless. It also doesn’t help that I can’t afford nice clothes my size. Everything is so expensive. I’m currently living at home with my parents and sister in a tiny ass two bedroom apartment that is currently infested with cockroaches, that has a broken toilet, and neighbors full of drama. We can’t afford to move.
My only friend doesn’t want to be friends with me anymore. Imagine that. She’s the only friend I had. But now she makes constant excuses as to why she can’t hang out with me. She once told me that she had to do chores (we’re the same age but she still lives at home as well) and I only found out through her boyfriend that she was at the bar with a work friend. She’s even been preventing her sisters (who I was also friends with) from hanging out too. Influencing them to lie to me and blow me off.
I just want to die.

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  1. Incelsior

    I hope one day, a man worthy of your time and care will dote on you as you move on with your life and career.

    You will be somebody’s queen one day, but for now you are your father’s princess. So take care of the kingdom you have now- or risk losing the one you are one day due. In the meantime, tidy your room. At least make a list of your essentials and place them in a tidy stack ready to move at a moments notice. Prepare yourself for the better things, or watch them go elsewhere. Put the effort in to improve yourself. It all starts one step at a time. Love doesn’t need money. It needs sacrifice. Sacrifice that which is making you lazy and dull.

    You are young, you have the opportunity right this minute to make the choice to change your life for the better or for the worse. You have access to the internet. Learn. Learn about how to lose weight. Learn methods of cooking and meals that help you balance your diet. Do you have a garden? Grow your own vegetables. I promise the feeling you will experience will be second to none when everyone bites down on potatoes you grew in the garden, tomatoes that have such rich flavour that you’ll wonder why all vegetables don’t taste this good….

    But most important of all, have patience. Nothing good comes from rushing into anything. You are merely a flower that has yet to bloom. Take your time and dig deeper and nurture yourself into a proud rose worthy of being worshipped by all that know and meet you.

    Your only true enemy that is holding you back, is staring right back at you in the mirror….

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