I don’t understand what the universe wants from me, or why things are bad. What am I doing wrong? I’m so confused all the time and the things that matter to me are being crushed in my face. I’m too nervous to do social shit with my friends, but yet I’m literally forced to socialize and suck up to aggressive customers all day every day. No one cares what I have to say, and my boyfriend likes me better when I don’t want to be around him and when I don’t say anything. I’m struggling with anorexia again, which i know is petty but I can’t bring myself to eat when I’m upset or when people are upset at me. I just want to know what I’m doing wrong. I try to think positive and meditate and eat and stuff but after a while shit gets old and I feel like just giving up on happiness.