So I just want to clear off my head before I get to work again.

I need to rant somewhere because my career has faced a roadblock.

I want a creative business. I want a studio. I want to paint. I want to create things that will bring value to others, like sewing leather, designing leather, capturing the human soul, doing what I love.

But here I am, applying for one of the top companies for the career I have started doing. Because I have responsibilities.

If I pass this, this dream may be gone for good.

I may lose this. I should not lose this.

I want to build my studio, but by