I’ve been in a relationship with the most amazing girl I’ve ever met for a little over a year until now, it might not seem like much but we were best friends before. Every single day since we met we talked all day and we talked all night every weekend, this relationship was long distance and I don’t care what anybody else thinks about it. She came into my life in 2014 and she was the best thing that had ever happened to me and she stayed even though all my other friends left, I met her at a very bad point in my life I had dropped out of school and today I had enrolled in a different school, I have a few friends and a few hours ago I had her. we watched movies together, played games together and told eachother everything but there was a lot of conflict and she just decided she was tired of it, she just changed her mind and said she didn’t want to be with me anymore and I’m so fucking stupid for getting so attached to her I’m probably so attached that it’s creepy, I dedicated every day of my life for a year to her and she just changed her fucking mind. I feel like dying, nothing is making me feel better I just keep crying and crying and every few minutes I stop and I dont feel anything and I don’t even believe that this is real or even happening so when it hits me it’s gonna hit me so fucking hard, I found comfort in thinking about her every night before i slept and I talked to her first thing when I woke up, she was always there for me when no one else was and everywhere I look there’s just something that reminds me of her and it hurts so fucking much, I don’t know what my life is without her and I don’t think I can live without her I don’t feel like I’ll ever be okay again all I do is make her feel bad and irritated and upset and I just hate myself so much, I’ve never needed someone like this before or loved anyone like this before.