its New Years and I’m sitting alone in my room, on the stupid ball drop website that doesn’t even show the performances. I’m crying. everyone else in the house went to sleep. I feel like ever since we moved to south Carolina nothing’s ever been the same. even on Christmas my dad had to practically force my mom to go in the living room for opening gifts. everything felt forced and stressful. holidays aren’t a big deal anymore because our entire family is at home. even my sister is in Pennsylvania. I just wanna go home. I hate it here