I can’t feel. I smile and pretend like everything’s okay. But it’s not. Nothing’s okay. I get home and I immediately wish I was dead. I don’t want to be here. I hate the environment. I hate my mom’s boyfriend. I hate how everyone hates each other. I hate that the only feeling I feel is hate. I’m reaching into my soul, trying mt hardest to feel and all I get is anger. Not tears, not laughter. No emotion but I just pissed because I can’t feel. And I just get more mad when I try and nothing happens. And I’m just mustering random shit now because I can’t tell you how I’m feeling. Just done.