my parents are aging and I live with them cuz I am fat and ugly and 47 and never even had a real serious boyfriend, but I am not gay, just very shy and timid and I pick up really quick on insults and inferences that people make at me. like being in a class and teachers talking about old people over a certain age being “long in the tooth” at dental school training. yeh, I recall many a directed insult made in jest but it still hurt. being reminded your old old old by doctors/surgeons older then me. if its there idea of funny its not mine.

I have had spinal injuries from car accident and also sexual trauma assault issues and other health problems when I was in hospital with illnesses. My mother expects me to do all her house work for her. I know she does expect it. I can’t my back hurts too. I need to complete courses and pass. I have exams to do. what am I supposed to do? I should have a husband of my own and a house of my own!

I buy them holidays and clothing and electrical goods and carpet their house. I cleaned their house like a ocd crazy girl , like some fucking loser cinderella that never got her handsome prince or graduation so look sorry I can’t keep painting your ceilings it near killed my neck and I got sick of being gassed out with bleach cleaning your bathroom from mould too.

I can’t help it if your so loser poor and stupid to get your finances and lives right. You produced me, another loser to the world. Every time I thought I was making wise choices it was later proven to be stupid choices. I can’t solve all your problems I have too many of my own I can no longer solve.

I AM A BROKEN EMPTY LOSER OF A WOMAN. THERE IS NO MAN WHO WILL LOVE ME THAT I COULD LOVE BACK. THERE IS NO HOT MAN THAT WILL HAVE A FAT OLD POTATO LIKE ME, YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANTED MUM, YOUR DAUGHTER AS UGLY AND SAD AS YOU AND UNLOVED BUT YOU GOT MORE FUCKING THEN I EVER DID, YET YOU MAKE OUT YOUR SO BADLY DONE BY BEING OLD. WELL YOU OWN A HOUSE THAT I DON’T. YOU LET YOUR OTHER KIDS FUCK UP MY CAREER AND EARNING COPACITY AND THAT USELESS CAR YOU ALLOWED ME TO BE FRAUDED BY THAT STUPID LIAR COMPANY. WHY DID I EVER TRUST YOU MUM?

AND DAD HE IS SO STUPID TOO. CAN’T CLEAN A THING. LIKES MESS AND GROT TO LIVE IN. I CAN’T CLEAN UP HIS SHIT. I MADE IT CLEAR I WANTED MY FURNITURE IN CERTAIN PLACES AND A NEW KITCHEN DOWN STAIRS. YOU HAVE MORE MONEY THEN ME. HOW ABOUT YOU GET OUT AND WORK. GOD KNOWS YOU WOULD GET MORE WORK THEN I WOULD CUZ OLD OLD CRUMBLIES AND BLACKS AND TARDS ARE THEY ONLY PEOPLE DISADVANTAGED TODAY.

I AINT GAY, I AINT VEGAN. I AINT NOTHING. I AM JUST BORING LOSER AVERAGE WITH NOTHING, CUZ I DON’T LOOK DISCRIMINATED ENOUGH? WHAT?

WELL LET THEM COME OVER AND SEE FOR THEMSELVES.

YOU WERE OFFERED FREE AGED CARE ASSISTANCE CLEANING. YOU DIDN’T TAKE IT OUT OF SHAME OF THE MESS WE LIVE IN. NO ONE ELSE IS GOING TO CLEAN IT. CUZ WHEN YOU DIE, I WILL JUST CALL THEM IN TO HELP ME CLEAN IT NO MATTER THE COST AND A NEW KITCHEN, SO YOU GO THINK ABOUT YOUR CRAZY CLOTHING HABITS AND YOUR WHOLE COPYCAT GAMES YOU PLAY AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU OUGHT TO BE DOING !

WE ARE POOR. SOLVE IT! YOU ARE SO CLEVER.